When this situation coming up....again....

It is sad when people appreciating us ONLY when we're gone. For that, I'd like to be something that gone ONCE, so that I can be someone that being appreciated. But, it is sadder when we know there is no difference whether we were gone or not. It becomes more sadder when it comes to persons that we'd loved so much....loved so much...loved so much...

Tears...please stop...i've cried so much for them...
Heart...please stop...i'm hoping so much from them...

But,
tears don't want to listen to me...they keep flowing as I thinking of them....
so do heart....as i'm still hoping from them...

I do everything to make things up with them...
I sacrifice everything to make them happy...
and I have no doubt at all to give my life too so that they will always safe...

But...
when outsiders are much more important to them...
when outsiders are much more loved by them....

I can't do anything....
and I don't want to do anything....
as I've tired trying everything...

What's the point loving you...when you don't even care about me...
what's the point missing you...when you don't even think about me...
what's the point to feel needing you...when you don't even need me...
I want keep my heart cold...cold from loving you, cold from thinking of you,
also cold from hoping so much to you....

But.....I just can't....
I don't know....but I just can't....
I've told my self a lot that mum and dad.....are the EVERYTHING to me...
they are....and they will forever are....
For that, I don't want anyone else....
I don't have anyone else...
But...deep in my heart....
you're NOT the person that can be NOTHING to me...

people never APPRECIATED what they've OWNED
but when it's GONE, they crazily MISSED that thing.

is it better to something that BEING LEFT,
than to be something that is BEING OWNED,
if being left is MUCH MORE APPRECIATED than being owned?